The Progesterone Fun and Vacation to Washington Fun...

Hello ya'll! Thought I would update y'all! :) Aaron's deployment is in full force and already he is miserable, and wants to be home. We are so very grateful that he will be out of the military and we will be headed home back to Washington in July of 2012. I will be able to chat with him a bit over the next month as he will be in ports. Meanwhile while he gets some liberty time off the ship, I'll be headed to Washington in just a few days! June 2-14- I'll be celebrating my nephew Noah's first birthday and hopefully the birth of Leah too! I'll attend my cousin Sarah's wedding with my family too! I was asked to share my testimony of faith and struggle in losing my daughter at church (the church where hubby and I wed) and sing. I will do that June 5 and I am very blessed and nervous. I will sing "When Praise Demands A Sacrifice" by Larnelle Harris. It's truly been my life song lately and speaks of my daughters origin of her name and the importance of praising God no matter what our circumstances. I hope to be a support and encouragement to others.

Well I am in my 12th week of pregnancy and will be headed into the second trimester as I head off on vacation. I am really excited! Our last appointment showed that Baby Rainbow attached lower in my uterus so the placenta is low-lying. Its very common and over 90% of cases found in the first-trimester correct themselves by 28 weeks, if it doesn't then its called placenta-previa. If that is the case I will need a C-Section at 36/37 weeks to avoid bleeding out. Of course we are praying that over the next few months our bi-weekly ultrasounds will show it correcting! We have an appointment and ultrasound May 31 to check baby, placenta, and cervix. I am currently on a once a day vaginal progesterone gel, it causes major headaches so I use it before bed so I sleep through it. It been amazing as I have had no bleeding or early trimester issues like I did with Moriah. The injections will begin after my vacation and will be done once a week so that will be much more convenient!

I am also quitting my job in Suffolk as of this week, so when I return from my vacation I'll be helping watch my friends new-born while she works part-time. Can this be anymore me? I'll be in my cups, as well as not driving an hour each way to work! I have plans to bust my butt before vacation and get the cleaning done that I've let go these last few months, feeling ill and spending time with hubby.

Ill be sure to update after our appointment next week! May your day be blessed, God Bless! ~

Our Rainbow Baby: Update, feelings, and upcoming events

Hello All! Its been quite sometime since I have updated. Thanks to a dear friend who mentioned how awesome I am at it, was I prompted to keep up with it!
We are currently pregnant again! Our Rainbow baby is due December 9, 2011 (baby was originally due on Moriah's birthday December 3). Of course we are over the moon and extremely terrified. After the loss of our dear angel we are plagued with the fear of pre-term labor and the loss of this miracle. On top of everything, I am alone. Aaron was deployed May 11, 2011 for seven months, due back in December. More then likely he will miss the birth of our miracle. But even more honestly- my heart fears of a loss I will have to endure without him, a loss we will both have to endure separately. He would never get to hold our miracle or see him/her for himself if anything should happen. I am absolutely terrified of that. I often pray "O.K God, here is your chance to show everyone you work miracles, everyones watching us and following this journey- it your chance to win hearts over to you. O.K God, I'm all alone here. Follow through for us and this miracle- you blessed us once again you can do anything. For my husbands sake alone (take me out of it) he has to see a happy baby when he returns. We can't lose baby again and be apart." I am often terrified of baby being a boy. Aaron has wanted a little man for quite some time and I am so scared i'll find out baby is a boy, no pressure. Aaron was so upset losing Moriah, I can't imagine him doing any better with losing a son. Just bearing my soul for you all here... Each day is a trusting faith filled journey! Doctor and I have a plan and progesterone injections weekly and bi-weekly cervix checks are the plan starting in two weeks.
A vacation is soon to come, June 2-13 I will be heading home to see my lovely family and attend my cousins wedding. I will be back in time to make my routine 2 week check-ups throughout the second trimester. End of June early July brings us to finding out the sex of baby :)
So much is going on, and I am really overjoyed to have been given such blessings! Despite the massive fear, my heart is full of faith and prayer for our crazy future headed for us before the years out!